it's been a while

personal blogs suck. I am WAAAY too lazy to even sign on to blogspot even though I'm on the computer 24/7. my 11-year-old brother recently tried to add me on facebook. oh what?! he's 11 and has a facebook? and he's trying to add me? wait. when did he turn 11?!!! I must admit, I did get a myspace in 7th grade...but I was 13! and I wasn't even allowed to have one so I never went on. but suffice to say, I did decline that friend request because who knows if my brother will see how I speak or try to add all my friends who use cuss words in their vocabulary every 2 words, although I wouldn't doubt that his friends do either. but still! this is getting too personal now...
I love the weather. I MUST post pictures soon.
to all who will never read this,
sam

like fire and rain,

so I'm in love with Jessica Szohr's hair. maybe, I'll cut it like hers, but probably not. I got the september 2010 issue of nylong mag and she is the cover page:


yeah, she's pretty. I'm jealous of her blue eyes and dark skin. like really, that's freaking beautiful.
I spent some wonderful time with my best friend, Brittney.








[last night I had a dream that I went with my family to a strip club....looking for the bitch that messed everything up. like all my cousins were with me and we had this plan to split up and everything. so when we got there, I realized that I wasn't looking for that whore, I was looking for you. then I found you. and I forgave you....for everything.] and I woke up feeling like an idiot. and I then all the anger came back.

what I'm wearing:
levi's patchwork cut-offs- DIY/goodwill
black bandeau- target
lace top- ?
belt- goodwill

no life after love

so, plume collection (my sister jessica and her friend amber) just released their new summer/fall collection. here's some pictures! not that anyone will ever see this...






like it?
cute right?
well then visit their facebook or etsy or tumblr.
it's pretty amaaazing.

sparkling whine

so, I thought I'd be able to use this blog without venting about anything. and maybe I can, if I stop typing right now. no. doesn't it bug when people say "I have to talk to you about something" or ask "can I ask you something?" or do some shit like that and it makes you all uncomfortable and shit? YEAH. I hate that too. like, HATE it. not only does it add to your initial stress, but it also SUCKS a thousand times more when that person says "never mind." or they might even leave you hanging for two days, which by the way, it WORSE than saying never mind. like oh my freaking goodness....anyways, my life isn't that bad, but today was NOT a good day....at all. just sayin'

why don't people call it autumn?

this fall, I'm excited. I love the weather, the clothes, and everything. I used to like spring, but I'm a bit ehh about it now. it lightens my mood but I just don't get the same feelings that I get with fall/winter. you have the pomona fair, halloween, thanksgiving, christmas. people are spoiled with a holiday every month...plus my birthday in december :D! only bad thing is school, but that's never going to change. but what's most exciting about the fall is fashion.
I'm in looove with maxi skirts, such as this one from AA:




next in line of my favorite fall items are combat boots/lace up boots. yes, I believe that urban effing outfitters said that, but I've been wanting boots since my sister bought a pair of combat boots from target like this past winter. oh& most def doc martens




jeffery campbell lace-up boots and white worn doc martens and bass two tone saddle shoes. -urban outfitters.
now, I'm probably going to steer away from wearing jeans a lot and mostly because I've undergrown a lot of my jeans so I'll probably end up wearing skirts/dresses/leggings/cut-offs. oh and thigh-highs, just like last winter. I am also in need of a warm jacket that I will be able to wear with anything. no, not a trench coat. no, not surplus. I'm looking for something....versatile. but, I would like to continue to buy crop tops, shorts, and sheer shirts (yeah, no). I'll treat this fall like it was summer, minus the bright colors.
I never really liked colors anyways. I like ivory/creme, grey, black, black, and more black. and peach (not quite flesh-colored, not quite pink)
I also need to find a debut dress. maybe something like this??


totes in love with this dress...too bad it's $1295 on etsy and custom-made. it would be too perfect.
is this even a fashion blog? I suck at this!

where's waldo?

so we got a new puppy today! he's a cockapoo. FUCKING ADORABLE! well, his name is waldo (: what a cutie.....
anyways, here's Proenza Schouler's Resort 2011...well not all of it, just some of my favorites! :D

the first one is my favorite. I want a jacket like that :D.
also, I'm thinking of dying my hair....maybe an auburn color? but I'm afraid of looking funny. I just want to do something new with my hair without cutting it. or maybe I should just shave it off....like brittney spears.
oh, and my outfit last night wasn't eventful enough to post online that's why my previous post was cut short.

first chance

dance. I have no idea what to wear tonight. I have no one to impress...just going to see if I can pass off as a freshman with some of my friends tonight. high school is ending soon, and when I think about where I'm at, I am still really young. just because I'm at the top of the class does not mean that I'm old. I still have another 15 years of school before I officially start my career....but I'm ohkay with that. I know somewhere along the line I'll be dreading it...I may even fall back into the same pattern and routine of attempting suicide. I'm kidding, I'M JUST KIDDING.
now since I lack a camera, I'll use the webcam so excuse the terrible quality.

i am not a robot

bruno mars is corny, but his songs are still really cuute.
kkay, I'm currently obsessed with this song:

paper wallflower

oh my goodness. this heat wave needs to leave now. well, I'm not in too good of a mood right now, I'm trying to tune-out my mother talking about miss universe and how the filipino contestant is an airhead. I guess I'm not doing too well if I'm still paying attention to what she's saying. no one I know knows about my blog and I'm going to try and keep it that way....for now. 

it's going to be 2 months this month since I've had this undiscovered sickness. I feel dizzy, ALL THE TIME. I've stopped complaining about it to people and my parents, but what if something is seriously wrong with me? going to the doctor and being subscribed useless drugs isn't doing me any good. today in religion, my teacher was talking about how God always answered prayers. it's been almost 2 months though...and he hasn't answered mine. I'll stop there before I go on this religious rampage.

hey look! it's me!

but I realized that people complain on tumblr A LOT. it bugs the freaking crap out of me, so I decide to unfollow fellow tumblogs to prevent any more unnecessary shit about how much their lives suck or how much they hate people. HAH, I guess they could do whatever the hell they want with tumblr, but seriously, they should think about what they complain about before they complain....because really, your life doesn't really suck. I used to be like that, always complaining about my life. but I haven't been lately because...I don't know what it's like. 

I don't know how it feels to be told you only have a couple of years left to live.

I don't know what it's like to go home to a broken family.

I don't know how it is not to eat every night.

I don't know what it feels like to be beaten, hurt, or abused in any way.

I don't know what it's like to sleep on the streets at night.

but I know what it's like to be me. I'm lucky to be alive. I'm blessed to have a family, even if there are riffs between us. I'm blessed to be receiving an education. so it bugs the effing s word out of me when people say, "my life isn't perfect." or "no one likes me," or "I'm not happy." 

I'll be blunt. fck you, in case you haven't noticed, no one's life is perfect. just because you don't have certain things, certain people in your life does not give you a right to complain about it and make it seem like your life is full of mistfortunes....so stop the complaining. stop being depressed over your life. STOP and really think about it. stop being an overdramatic bitch and let go of what you can't have. because you don't know what it's like. hell, I don't even know what it's like. so experience it before you start to complain. seriously.....

shorts- Guess cut-offs/DIY

lace tank- NY & Company

cardigan thing- Goodwill

oxford heels- ALDO

ALDO

I am patiently waiting for my ALDO shoes. got some adorable black sandal heels. not really clogs, but they were in the clog section online. it said it should be coming today, but it's still not here! I was so excited to get home from school just so I could see them. well here's the online picture of the beauties. I hope I'm not disappointed.

by the way, I' still looking for the perfect pair of clogs! but I decided that I should save up for some jeffery campbell shoes, it'll take a year, but I want to do it!

ohkay, so my shoes just arrived. I'm in love. pictures eventually :D

my first time

so here is my very first post. it's not official, I'm just going to mess around now and figure out what I can accomplish. kkay, well bye!